A letter to Papa,

Hey Papa! Father’s day is near. People are already preparing.. Promotions are already being thought about; gift suggestions are already being displayed..have you ever look forward for this day? I wonder. Did it ever occurred to you how special this day is? or it is just another normal day? I suppose the latter.

 

Hey Papa! Did you ever wish your daughter would call you some day and greet you ” Happy Father’s Day!” ? or maybe surprise you with a gift beside your bed, maybe its your favorite branded clothes, or car parts, or a subscription to a club, or maybe just take you out on a dinner? Did you Papa? or you never wished because you forgot that you even have a daughter? I suppose the latter.

 

Hey Papa! Did you ever feel envious? When your friends go on family trips together.,eat out together with the whole family..so complete..a mother, a father and their children? or you never feel any because you never want a complete family? I suppose the latter.

 

Hey Papa! Did you remember the first and last words you said to your daughter? How she initiated the conversation because you were too conceited and coward to speak to her? Did you papa? Maybe not! Because for you it was just another ordinary night. Just you making a conversation. Just you, granting the pleading request of your 18 year old daughter, for you to see eye to eye, talk heart to heart, for the first time in her 18 fucking years of existence! Which one Papa? I suppose the latter.

 

Well Papa, I wanted to tell you a lot of things. Ask a lot of questions. Clarify a lot of issues..but you are not ready for it,or never will be. However Papa, I want to greet you Happy Fathers Day! even if you do not deserve it.

Still, I wanted to tell you my sincerest THANK YOU! Thank you Papa! Thank you for breaking my heart before I was even born. More so, for tearing my Mama’s heart into pieces. You have made her,me, us stronger than we will ever be. Your absence taught me that not all men are strong enough to stand on their own feet. Some just plant seed and leave when the seed starts to sprout because it would mean responsibility.

Your absence taught me that not all men are strong enough to stand on their own feet. Some just plant seed and leave when the seed starts to sprout because it would mean responsibility. 

Thank you for teaching me that I should be responsible for myself,for my decisions, for my actions. To accept my mistakes, learn from it and rise above. If not for you Papa, I will be dependent enough to your strengths or of other peoples’. If its not you Papa, I will not be this strong, because I gain what you lack.

I learnt to fight back the abuse of other men like you, who think women are just women. Inferior and exists only to please men. I learnt to speak up my rights and say no as an answer, things you can never do Papa, words you can never utter. I learned to protect Mama, to protect myself,and understand that even if sometimes we are weak, I can still stand up because who else will do? Its just us Papa, you weren’t there.

I learned to fight, fight until I have the strength to…

I learned when to speak and when not to..

and to show the world that no one’s actions and mistakes can ever define me and who I want to be! Not even you Papa, not even.

Thank you for that Papa.

I am genuinely grateful for that! Somewhat grateful that even if I do not have the will to choose a parent, you were given to me, because I will not be me if its not for you.

So for what its worth,

I genuinely greet you..

HAPPY FATHER’s DAY!!

 

 

 

_- from the best daughter you will ever have.

(or the only daughter you have)

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Zoe tries to Vlog

Holy weeks are holidays for some..its a chance to visit places because why not? Its long weekend. But, for me, this holiday is best spent with family. It’s the time to do some catching up and bonding moments long stolen other stuffs we attend to during regular days.

As for Zoe and me, we just did staycation.. Aside from the fact that I was sick, it’s the best time to do some parenting 😂

Here’s some snippets of our days together last holiday.😂😂😂 (all raw files)

My AdSummitPH 2018 experience

This year, I got to attend the biggest advertising and marketing event in the Philippines. An event wherein almost all the key players in the industry have gathered around to learn, showcase and mingle with each other.

Here is the video to summarize my week of stay in Subic for the event. 😜

I am a WOMAN and I deserve EQUALITY

In a world where everyone believes in equality is a group who still fights for their right.
It’s a group who still struggles to have a name, to be heard, to be seen, to be appreciated, to be loved, and to express..
A group who have long been muted by society who’s rights are defined but not exercised..

Who’s responsibilities are endless but capacity is limited.
These group…are women.
Women,who,no matter how empowered still at one point or another becomes inferior.
Women,who,no matter how loud they scream seems inaudible..
Women, who,no matter how hard they work will always stay at the bottom.

It’s hard to be a woman.
It’s hard to always fight for your right wherever,whenever.
It’s hard to always fight because you knew that you don’t have to but they provoke you.
It’s hard to always explain yourself to anyone,everyone.
Its hard because you knew that you don’t owe anyone an explanation.
Its hard to always be misunderstood,
To always be judged,
To always be cursed,
To always be humiliated,
To always be disgraced,
To always be blamed,
To always be themselves..

Why does it have to be difficult breathing?
Why does it have to be difficult existing?

I am a woman!
And I deserve what you deserve,
Not because I am greedy,
But because I deserve equality.

How to qualify as a Mom

Can you really call your self a mom if you really haven’t done your job “as a mom” and by “job as a mom” I mean the job of a mom as what society defines it to be.

To qualify as a mom you must experience all of the following: (Not just one or some,but All of it)


1. Give birth
2. ‎Breastfeed
3. ‎See your child grow
4. ‎Witness your child’s milestones.
5. ‎Remember when your child first walk
6. ‎Remember what’s your child’s first word
7. ‎Feed your baby
8. ‎Change your baby’s diaper
9. ‎Take a bath of your baby
10. ‎Send your baby to school
11. ‎Teach your child’s first language
12. ‎Sing lullaby to your child
13. ‎Read them books
14. ‎Tuck them to bed
15. see them grow


These are just the basic things that a mom should do (according to the societal standards) to qualify and be called A MOM.
Its alarming and bias isn’t it?

Mother nowadays are not the typicals. Gone are the days when women are too inferior than men that they don’t even deserve a place in the corporate world..or even to become leaders. Women nowadays,and mostly mothers are sharing the same loads as those of men. They deserve equal rights as their male counterpart.

Society should acknowledge the fact that there are portions of working women who are moms. They are working to provide for the family while climbing their way up to the corporate ladder. She is making sure she meet the needs of her two bosses- her family and her corporate boss.
She should not be at fault not seeing her child’s milestones because she is doing her best to cope up. And believe me it is the worst thing ever for a mom, to know less about her child.

What about those mom’s who portray the role of two personas? Those who struggle to be a mom and a dad disregarding her own personal happiness for her child’s sake? Or maybe asking someone to take care of her child while she source out the ways and means of surviving their life?
Do you think she don’t deserve to be called a mom for missing much? Without even thinking what she had to endure to survive?

What about the mom who choose to travel away from the family to secure their future?
She missed everything.. Knew her child based on photos and videos sent. Contented on the videocalls even if deep inside her heart is pouring out with pain.
Do you think she does not deserved to be called a mother just because she was not there?

Society should stop defining who’s who. Because women deserve everything in this life. They deserved to be heard. They deserve a place. And they deserved to be acknowledged as much as others are. Mothers, especially,are the group of women who are often underrated. People would say “oh they’re just moms.” Like its that simple.
Apparently to the world,mom’s are just those women who change their child’s diapers,breastfeed them and sing them lullabies. But in Reality,these group of women are the toughest species in the planet. They are heroes and have gone through a lot just to make sure their families enjoy a bright future. They sacrificed themselves.. They are selfless.. They are tough!

So how should one qualify to be called a mom?
Screw it!
Everyone can be a mom!
(Even if your not born with the v)

So to all women,especially Mom’s out there, do not let others define who you are or what you want to become because you are doing great!

Happy International Women’s Day!

-N

‘What if your life ended this minute?

I stumbled upon a Facebook  video shared by reset.fit entitled

‘What if your life ended this minute?

Watching it got me thinking like, What if I was not ready and my life ended this minute? What will I do? What will I say before it happens? and Where will I go after that?

Death as they say is inevitable. Everyone will die at some point in their lives, some just left sooner than others. However, no matter how much you anticipate death, it is still scary. We will never be ready for it, emotionally at least.

The video I watched left questions for viewers to answer. Let’s try to answer the questions one by one and contemplate on life.

  1. What do you love about yourself?

 

uhm. I love that I can now be myself and do what I really want with my life. I love that I am sensitive of other people. I’d like to think that I can easily symphatize and emphatize with other people. I easily know if they are hurt, offended or genuinely happy by looking at their faces. I love that I care too much and care less whichever is necessary.

 

2. Do you have any regrets about your life?

 

I would like to say I don’t, but truth is, I have.

I regret not taking chances with people, relationships. I regret not trusting the right people when I was younger. I built my walls so high no one could come close. I was so afraid to get hurt that I always stayed on my comfort zone.  Because of that, I ended up trusting the wrong people and let the right people go.

But even if I regret some decisions I made, I am still thankful for it. It made me wiser, it made me realize what works and what doesn’t. It made me stronger and taught me life lessons based on first hand experiences.

 

3. If you were given one more chance, what would you do?

 

I could not turn back time and  re-do or undo things. What I will do is make the most of it. Learn from the past experiences and make sure not to repeat the same mistakes twice. I will love until I have nothing to give. I will appreciate even the smallest things and live life not thinking about what ifs and what could be’s more than the experiences it may bring me.

I will live everyday as a fresh start and do the things that I love. I will try new things, conquer my fears and I will love life even more!

 

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How about you? Are you brave enough to  answer those three (3) questions?

 

 

 

 

-N

100 FACTS ABOUT ME

I am way exhausted about wrong perceptions and stories about me which I don’t even know happened or occured. Like WTH? If you’re interested to get to know me better and beyond the hear say’s go on and take time to read this post, but if  not then  you’re free to leave. 😀


Here’s the 100 random facts about me.

  1. I was born in 1993.
  2. I am the only child
  3. I love chocolates
  4. I love surprises.
  5. I am short tempered and impatient.
  6. I love performing. (dancing/ theatrical presentations/play)
  7. (In connection to number 6 ) I was part of the Special program in the arts in High School and majored Theater arts.
  8. I cried when I competed for Monologue (Romeo and Juliet piece) because I was so nervous and pissed at the same time with the thought that no one was there to support me. But turns out they’re just late.
  9. I have my mini toy showroom when I was a kid.
  10. There are distant relatives who wants to adopt me and whenever they visit us, I hid underneath my bed until they left.
  11. My mother died when  I was 17 years old.
  12. I miss my mom everyday.
  13. I used to hate my father whenever I experience misfortune and every time I see my mom exhausted.
  14.  I witnessed and was abused (physically and emotionally)
  15. I fought someone with a knife.
  16. I love writing and expressing my feelings through it.
  17. I gave a friend a custom made poem for her birthday.
  18. I competed feature writing in Elementary and won.
  19. I was also forced by our adviser to represent our school for Tigsik writing even if I don’t know what it is and how to do it, but ended up winning 3rd place out of 5 awards.
  20. I used to write short stories and novels.
  21. I graduated Salutatorian in Elementary and Cum Laude in College.
  22. I flank infront of the whole campus and ended up getting a round of applause.
  23. I dumped one of my suitors through a blog post. HAHA
  24. I was called to report to the Guidance office because I bully my classmate and call her “Imang”. ( a name given to a hunchback fictional character )
  25.  During elementary days, I was always the batch’s representative in school pageants.
  26. My favorite street game is Tumbang Preso.
  27. I was elected President of the Math Club in our school, but I’m actually bad at it.
  28. I was given a low grade by our adviser in Grade 2 because I unintentionally told her I don’t like her birthday gift. ( I didn’t mean it though)
  29. I don’t like hard rock music and metal.
  30. The church was my comfort. I used to ran off home and went to church just to cry my heart out.
  31. I love playing scrabble, and missed playing it now.
  32. I punched someone in the stomach because his bullying me.
  33. I am a very picky eater.
  34. I was enrolled to a summer painting class before because I always cry  and complain that my drawing is bad.
  35. I like adventures.
  36. I don’t like seafoods. Allergic to it too.
  37. I can eat chicken only my entire life.
  38. I can’t eat fried milkfish without tomato ketchup.
  39. I played soccer in College.
  40. and hit 3 goals during Intramurals. Talk about LUCK 😀
  41. My friends surprised me on my 18th and 19th birthday and it was the best birthday ever.
  42. I spent my 23rd birthday on a plane and ended up in Hongkong and Macau. (This is the best-est birthday 😀 )
  43. I watched A walk to remember more than 5 times and still cry hard.
  44. I love the series titled “SUITS”.
  45. I have a high achievement need.
  46. I don’t drink  beer.
  47. I love avocado, watermelon, melon and mango.
  48. I love Milk tea!
  49. I can’t finish a cup of coffee. 2 sips will do.
  50. I can’t eat more than 3 fishball, kikiam etc.
  51. I am competitive.
  52. Me and my friends locked ourselves in our room so we won’t pay the entrance fee of the ball.
  53. I used to sell “recycled items” as long as its glittery when I was in Elementary. Talk about being business minded eh?
  54. I used to love chemistry way back in College and had a BS Chem ex- boyfriend 😀
  55. Me and my friends locked ourselves at our room and hid behind the cabinets so we would not pay for the grand ball’s entrance fee.
  56. I’m kuripot.
  57. I am very sentimental.
  58. I am bad at showing my weak spot to my family.
  59. I eat a lot.
  60. I don’t like wearing uniforms
  61. I have multiple social media accounts in one media because i frequently forget my password.
  62. I hate nosy people
  63. My ideal breakfast is either pancakes, and bread.
  64. Its my weird dream to be a maid of honor.
  65. I had a daughter at 20 years old.
  66. I experienced spending New Years Eve on the street alone.
  67. I played volleyball even if I’m 4 months pregnant.
  68. I did zipline superman style when I was 4 months pregnant.
  69. My favorite color is white.
  70. I had a TV interview once.
  71. I slept in a haunted house two nights.
  72. I’m acrophobia and trypophobia.
  73. I joined pageant several times. (forced to)
  74. My favorite day is Wednesday. I don’t know why but I used to dress well and feel well during Wednesday.
  75. I hate false promised and cancelled plans. I want everything to be well planned.
  76. I cried over a dead bird I stepped on.
  77. My day will not be complete without checking Instagram.
  78. I’m not a pet lover. I once had a pet and found it the mouth of our house cat.
  79. I pet 2 guinea pigs named Kari and Poku.
  80. I have a bad memory and short term memory problem.
  81. Bu I think that I have a minor photographic memory ability. I tend to remember things after I see it.
  82. I love public speaking.
  83. I am an emcee since college, and hosted a wedding
  84. My blood type is A+. and just learned it last 2014, all the while i thought I am Blood O.
  85. My weirdest gift wish list is a dictionary.
  86. I always say what I want to say regardless of how harsh it is.
  87. I am competitive.
  88. I have a product development/ brand manager profession.
  89. I think I am a semi bi sexual
  90. I have a lot of nicknames depending on the group of friends.
  91. I love having a relaxing body massage and spa treatments.
  92. I am indecisive.
  93. I sprained my thumb because of playing volleyball.
  94. I am not confident with my teeth.
  95. the first big concert  I attended to was Shaw Mendez at MOA.
  96. I can sense if someone is taking photograph of me.
  97. I like being the subject of a photo.
  98. I am ambidextrous.
  99. I am either lazy or super industrious. nothing in between.
  100. My name is Nicole,and these are the 100 random facts about me.

 

 

 

  • N

 

SELF REALIZATIONS VOL 2 “Blame it on my Zodiac (Scorpio)”

Have you ever been in a situation wherein you just want to be alone and shut down the world? Like you realized that you have the tendency to push people away, when all they want to do was to help you out?

I did! Always, maybe?

I recently had a fight with someone because I was pissed off about  the thought that this person is lecturing me about something I thought I already figured out.  S/He was startled and left after telling me these words “Ikaw na nga tinutulungan, ikaw pa ang galit” — Then comes awkward silence.  The silence drift me away to realizations that”yeah! I think this person was right after all. ”  Maybe I was being mean perceiving that they do not think I know what I am doing, or that they are just messing with  my ideas; because on the other side of the coin they are just genuinely suggesting and  helping me with  an  alternative.

A friend once told me that maybe it was because of my zodiac. People who were born under  the  zodiac of Scorpio are usually defensive and over thinkers. They protect themselves so much that they tend to dismiss the help offered  by others thinking that it has ulterior motive, and shut down the people who tends to show love. They know their territory and protect it by all means, and that Ladies and Gentlemen…is so me..

Now what shall we do about this Scorpio’s?

Well.. we could always blame it on our zodiac and say WTF! I’m a Scorpio!

But we can’t! It doesn’t work that way. Before we would realize the recourse of our actions, people already lost the will to  keep and understand us. So before they get tired f the understanding the stubborn Scorpio, let the change start little by little.

As for me, I am practicing the art of MATURITY. 2017 has shown me lessons telling me how immature I still am. So this 2018, i will make sure to master the art before I can no longer apply it on someone else because I wont have anyone else anymore.

 

-N

Self Realizations Volume 1

This may be 25 days late but, I am still amazed by the fact that another year has ended and we are now on the page of the new one.

For me, 2017 was a year of Learnings. I couldn’t say that it was the best year nor the worst one, but rather it was the year when I finally “somewhat” get to know myself more. The year when I “somewhat” figure things out. I was faced with obstacles that forced to do “adulting”.

To share with you some pointers, here are the things I learned last 2017.

 

  1. NEVER TO RELY ON OTHERS,EXCEPT YOURSELF
  2. WHAT YOU DON’T KNOW WON’T HURT YOU
  3. PATIENCE IS REALLY A VIRTUE
  4. IF YOU WANT TO STEP UP, START NOW!
  5. NO ONE CAN BETTER UNDERSTAND YOU THAN YOURSELF.
  6.  YOU SHOULD LEARN  TO CARE LESS
  7. HOW NOT TO LET OTHER’S DEFINE WHO YOU ARE
  8. HOW GIVING IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN RECEIVING
  9.  NO MATTER HOW KIND YOU ARE, SOME PEOPLE WILL STILL BE A BITCH
  10. SOME PEOPLE WILL HATE EVERY BIT OF YOU AND ALL YOU CAN DO IS ACCEPT THAT AND MOVE ON.
  11.  THIS IS YOUR LIFE. DON’T LIVE TO PLEASE OTHERS. PLEASE GOD INSTEAD.

 

 

 

 

 

-N